there is purpose in this season

she hates me

A portrait at 34 with a very grumpy cat

Hello.  Hope everyone had a lovely holiday!  I turned 34 the day after Thanksgiving.  To be honest, I’ve never thought much about being 34.  I can barely remember how old I am on a daily basis and 34 is just one of those ages that just doesn’t seem as flashy as 35.  At the end of the day, I still feel like I am 17 years old and have no idea what the hee-haw I am doing :).

It is always nice to spend a few moments to reflect on the past year.  Not to dwell on the “what ifs” and “if onlys”, but to find gratitude in all the year’s blessings.  This year has had an abundance of wonderful things from simple and sweet moments to big, life changing decisions.

Let’s see where this next year takes me.  Perhaps I will find fame and fortune or maybe I’ll just continue trying to live a quiet and meaningful life in the craziness of sweaty, South Florida!

Health Update:

When I started working on my weight loss, I had a goal of losing 30 pounds by my birthday and  I was close- 25 pounds!  And you know what?  I am so happy at my accomplishment I don’t even care that I was 5 pounds away.  I am already planning for my next health goal, but for now am finding some much needed rest in my mind and body as I practice my new habits and decision making.  Time and time again I keep telling myself that this is not a race and to give myself a good solid year to reach my final goals.

My surgery and weight loss made me much more prepared for some fertility assistance.  We started our first round of clomid and will know if it was successful very soon.  In other news, I am absolutely despising my other medication that is giving me a “period”.  Although I only take it for 7 days, the last 3 months I have noticed a drastic shift in my mood for that week.  My anxiety triples and I feel sad and low.   After these next rounds of clomid I will seek another option because no one has time to have their mind messed up with medication.  I am also hopeful that as I continue to reach a healthy weight my hormones will do their thang and begin to regulate things.

Life is good and no matter the outcome of these next cycles and I am falling back to this mantra:

“There is purpose in this season”

Self Portrait 34 bw

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